fantasy as a way of self-soothing

Fantasy was my main coping device for living in a dysfunctional family. Spiderman was one fantasy I had and would spend hours a day being Spiderman, climbing all over the veranda, making sure I wouldn’t touch the ground. Once I was sexually abused from age 6 to 9, I started to fantasy about having sex or be in sexual relationships with others. By the time I hit age 20 I was completely addicted to sexual fantasy and relationship fantasy.

I do have a relatively ‘normal’ fantasy where I have lots of money and a beautiful house and life. The only problem is that I’m still self-soothing with fantasy, instead of connecting with real people.

Gavin.

A fresh look at sexuality

This YouTube video is really informative and interesting about male and female sexuality.

I was particularly interested about female sexuality and how it is so different to males.

women’s ques are internal, and men’s are external. No surprise there…

The desire of the man is for the woman.

The desire of the woman is for the desire of the man.

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Men’s top 4 body parts they look up (when looking at porn) are…

  1. Brests
  2. Buttocks
  3. Feet
  4. Penis (large penis)

The Hackney Mole Man

William Lyttle the mole man

Lyttle arrived in London from his home country of Ireland in the mid-sixties when he inherited 121 Mortimer Road in the London borough of Hackney from his parents. Records show Lyttle’s occupation listed as civil engineer but no evidence exists that he was qualified or ever had a career in civil engineering.

Lyttle excavated an extensive network of tunnels under his property and surrounding public and private land from the 1960’s to 2000’s. Rather than being a recluse, Lyttle was described as a rather chatty, eccentric, energetic character who would often be seen at local scrap yards and markets.