food and sleep

I’ve some good some not so good news.

I’m doing really well in terms of living (currently) in a peaceful abode. But have been eating like I’m on death row. I have had an eating disorder since I was 17, so have had problems with ‘over-eating’ throughout my life. I’ve probably put on about 10 kilograms recently (the last two months). Yes. Very scary. So, I’ve bought a treadmill and are using it every day.

The other thing is I’m sleeping 12 hours a day almost every day. This is NOT good. I’m not depressed but am over-sleeping which is not good for me at all.

Still not sure how to tackle my over-sleep issue. If I set an alarm, it may trigger anxiety. So, I will need to try different things to see what works best. BTW: I’m not a morning person. G.

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Lies are sweet in the beginning and Bitter in the end…

…and the Truth is Bitter in the beginning and Sweet in the end.

I recently saw a YouTube video on Gaslighting, and they said that telling lies was a form of gaslighting. This really caught my attention because I was lied to a lot as a child (but also as an adult), by my family.

If I remember these events, I feel very very angry, so need to be careful with what I think about and what I replay in my head.

For me I find this behavior VERY aggressive, particularly when it is done by a family member because it was done to me over and over and over.

The other one that triggers me a lot is passive aggressive behavior. There is someone I know who does this to perfection.

Yesterday I asked if we could make a time to catch up. She said: “if I’m awake, I will answer the call. If I’m asleep, I won’t answer.

She said nothing about what I actually asked for, which was a convenient time to catch up.

Funny enough I know this person really well and understand where the behavior comes from, so I understand why she does this.

What ends up happening is I end up blocking this person, so I don’t end up getting really angry, over and over.

I’m actually a very intelligent man……but because of my psychiatric disability I’m very isolated. Gavin.

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12 Passive Aggressive Tactics Covert Narcissists Love to Use

#1. General lifestyle non-cooperation.

#2. Expressing a desire to help, yet becoming sidetracked.

#3. Responding to confrontations with perplexion.

#4. Telling you what to do via questions.

#5. Playing the role of the victim.

#6. Running a smear campaign behind your back.

#7. Paying you a compliment while also complaining.

#8. Not including you in activities.

#9. Brazenly ignoring you, then feigning innocence.

#10. Holding onto a moral high ground, but passing judgment.

#11. The classic silent treatment.

#12. Appearing willing to please, yet holding grudges.

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10 Signs Your Childhood Was More Emotionally Damaging Than You Think

00:00 Intro

00:50 Sign 1: Nothing Bad Enough to Explain How You Feel

02:00 Sign 2: Inside Jokes About What Hurt You Most

03:10 Sign 3: Provided For, But Not Seen

04:20 Sign 4: The Unspoken No-Talking Rule

05:30 Sign 5: Some Feelings Allowed, Others Punished

06:40 Sign 6: You Stopped Trusting Your Own Memory

07:55 Sign 7: You Became Who They Needed

09:00 Sign 8: “So Mature for Your Age”

10:10 Sign 9: Calm Makes You Nervous, Not Safe

11:20 Sign 10: Everyone Outside Thought You Were Fine

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Jerry Wise is brilliant. His work is so important. Gavin.