I stopped attending Grow quite a while ago and was aware that at some point I will need to get back to studying for my mental health.

First, I stopped drinking (for the 600th time) over Easter and now are back to studying Eckhart Tolle and A Course in Miracles. Also, back to the healthy diet too.

I know I have to do this as there is a lot of unconsciousness still in me. Also, plenty of resistance and avoidance of the Now…

Although I love studying The Power of Now, I still have some resistance to it because I have a very strong pain body. (past trauma). So, when I listen to the book, my pain body gets triggered and I stop listening and wander off in my negative thoughts.

You are walking along a path at night, surrounded by a thick fog. But you have a powerful flashlight that cuts through the fog and creates a narrow, clear space in front of you. The fog is your life situation, which includes past and future; the flashlight is your conscious presence; the clear space is the Now.

Eckhart Tolle

ACIM is very different to Eckart in that it is non-duality teaching…specifically i.e. Buddhism.

I listen to the Course every night before I go to sleep. If I don’t do that, I feel completely wrong and can’t get to sleep.

I am not a victim of the world I see.

acim