some distant memory – electronic

I don’t know
If we could get lost in a city this size if we wanted to
And I don’t know
If I could survive without seeing you
And every time I see your face
I feel out of place

It’s so easy, why are you leaving?
Is it just because I’ve grown afraid of you?
I wish we were at the beginning
It would be so good to be with you

See that girl? She’s over there
I don’t need her, she don’t care
I could be one in a million
It would be so good to start again


i was going to do my fave albums of all time, but have decided to do songs instead.
this song is by Bernard Sumner & ex-Smiths guitarist Johnny Marr.

the part about growing afraid of you (ones wife/partner) relates to me a lot.

my PTSD was particularly pernicious in relationships, as, over time i would become more afraid/angry in a relationship as the PTSD kicked in.

this had nothing to do with the other person, but with my traumatic past.

all very painful for both parties.


3 thoughts on “some distant memory – electronic

  1. I have always said if you do not struggle relationally then you never understand why making good sound choices is difficult for me! I used to attract bullied people in my life! I hope that is over! I understand you!

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